Thursday, July 19, 2012

Ya Sham

If ever there was ever a time when you really the internet to be fast and free, it would be now.  I am desperate for live news updates on Syria, and the slowest-in-the-world, pay-per-hour internet is just not cutting it.  I've been watching al-Jazeera Arabic (and a few other Arabic networks) on the small tv I've rigged to work in my bedroom, but unfortunately the picture isn't clear and the newscasters speak so quickly that I only understand 70% of what is being said...

This does appear to be the beginning of the end of the Assad regime, but what comes next and when it comes is anyone's guess.  I have so many thoughts and emotions running through my mind, but mostly I just feel sadness for all those suffering, and for the destruction of the city that I love, and for the pain I know will linger long after anything is "resolved".

Thursday, July 12, 2012

Quick Update


Yes, despite my previous apology about writing so little and my promise to be more diligent, I let things slip again.

But thanks to a Skype call from my parents urging me to update people and a subsequent email from a beloved relative doing the same… I’m sucking it up and at least providing an update!

As you may have figured out by now, I was having such an incredible time here that I extended my stay until the end of July.  I’ll officially be back in the States on July 30, which means I now have only 2.5 weeks left here—crazy, and too little time.

Part of the reason for my absence (and trip extension) is that I’ve signed up for two Arabic classes here.  My interactions with people I met in my daily life showed me how much I needed to improve my local dialect; really, it’s pathetic that I can read an Arabic newspaper but couldn’t understand what someone meant when they asked me the local equivalent of “What’s happening?”

The classes are specific for the Lebanese (cumSyriancumJordaniancumPalestinian) dialect, and they’ve been excellent so far.  I’m in class five days a week, Monday through Friday, for six hours a day 3x a week and three hours a day the other two.  In between that, I haven’t been doing much other than studying and SLEEPING; I had completely forgotten how utterly exhausting it is to study a language full-time.  Your brain shuts down early in the night, and even when you get nine hours of solid rest you still wake up exhausted.  It’s paying off for me, however; the other night I dreamt in Arabic (which I haven’t done since I was in Syria), and I can already tell that my daily interactions with people are improving.

I’ve also been doing little things here and there.  They haven’t seemed like things worthy of writing about, but they are part of my experience as a whole and thus deserve mention. 

The most significant of these little experiences is that I started spending a lot of time hanging out at a local food stand near my hotel, and I’ve gotten to know the people there quite well.  They’re all Syrian, and each has related to me his individual story; these have been just some of many similar stories that I’ve heard from others like them, and they are all heartbreaking.

Three of the guys who work there are brothers of varying ages.  The youngest is my age.  After attending a political protest in Damascus in 2011, he was arrested and detained for three months.  He was held in a small cell (he described it as about 6x6ft) with twelve other guys.  It was so crowded they couldn’t sit or lay down, and they had to take turns leaning on each other to sleep.  He was beaten, tortured—and the whole time his family had no idea where he was located or if he was even alive.  He recently had to have eye surgery to fix damage caused by the beating. 

And that’s not even the worst.  One of his other brothers here was in prison (also unknown to his family where) for seven months.  They have another brother still in Syria in prison.

So I’ve been hanging out at this shop, mostly just sitting outside with the regular patrons and workers, people-watching and using my growing dialect skills to understand their conversations.  I’ve hung out a few times with some of the nicer ones, which has resulted in me driving here—on separate occasions—a car as well as a moped.  Apparently, my driver’s license works here too—that is, if I were to be pulled over, which happens almost never as there are no real “rules of road.”  That later fact is terrifying and difficult to accept, and it led to my pulling over to the right side of the road and then slowing down to a stop when the car behind me on the highway turned on flashing red and blue lights.  The owner of the car—who has no conception of American state police and driving laws—had no idea why I was reacting they way I was, and found it all hilarious when I explained it to him.  The car merely had obnoxious lights and wanted to pass me; furthermore, I was more likely to run into a militia than the police in the neighborhood I was driving through.

That’s all for now… I will try (once more) to keep you all updated.  My time here is quickly dwindling!

Monday, June 25, 2012

Shock, and Saying Yes


First—my apologies for not posting anything in a while.  I have several half-written blog post drafts, but—this being me—I didn’t want to post them until the writing was perfect.  The number of experiences and sights I want to convey to you is increasing, however, so I need to bite the bullet, stop agonizing over the placement of commas, and start posting more before things start to slip from relevance and I don’t write them down at all.

On Wednesday night, I checked into the hostel I will be staying at for the rest of my time here.  Like all other hostels I’ve been in, there isn’t much there to write home about, so to speak—although I will anyways. ;)

The hostel is located in a different part of the city than where I’ve been staying, so my taxi ride there was the first exposure I’ve had to downtown Beirut.  With the window rolled down, the breeze whipping my hair, and my mouth dropped open in awe, I’m sure I quite resembled a dog on a joyride.  There is no other way to say it—I was SHOCKED by how rich it was.  The brand-new skyscrapers and buildings are a sea of glass, steel, and stone—there’s a European feel to it, a melding of modern and new architecture pretending to be old that I love so much in design.  The area is a mix of apartments, hotels, offices, restaurants and boutiques; names like Dolce & Gabbana, Alaia, Celine, and Tom Ford fly past my window—and for the first time in my Middle Eastern travel experience, these aren’t the knock-offs. 

Right outside of the downtown area, we arrived at my hostel, and I have to say—after the opulence of a view minutes earlier, the crumbling staircase, water-stained walls, and typically mismatched sheets (mine are Disney princesses and camouflage) that met me was a bit of a letdown.  Oh, if I could afford more! 

In my rush to find a taxi and get my suitcase into the trunk in heavy traffic (the incessant honking stresses me out), I had forgotten to negotiate the price of the ride beforehand, so I ended up paying far more for the ride than I would have normally, but such is the travel experience.

I am staying in a dorm-style room with two other backpackers.  The first roommate I met was an American girl spending a few days in the city before she traveled down south to teach English at the Palestinian refugee camps for the summer, after which she will move to Amsterdam in September on a Fulbright grant.  She and I talked about the city and travel and life while I unpacked; it is these encounters with strangers that become fast, transient friends that make the hostel experience so special—I just wish the rest of hostel experience didn’t come with it.

I soon discovered that I had forgotten my towel and shower shoes at my friend A’s apartment and, combined with the fact that I really didn’t need to stay in a hostel yet (A was in America on a business trip so I had her room to myself), I left shortly afterwards and stayed at her apartment again that night.

The next night, Thursday, I fully intended on staying at the hostel after I had showered at A’s (who would exchange a private bathroom for a communal shower, really?), but then I received a call from my friend J.  J and I had studied together in the same Arabic class in Damascus three years ago, when he was on Fulbright there.  He has since graduated with a master’s degree, is now working on his PhD in History at Princeton, and is in Beirut for the summer doing research for his dissertation.  He was calling because a friend of his had access that night to a table at Pier 7, a hot Beirut club, and he wanted to know if I wanted to join.

Now, normally I am a homebody.  I like my routines, I like to read books before I go to bed, and I can’t even say I’ve been to a real club before.  But I made a resolution recently to stop saying “no” so often, and start accepting invitations and opportunities that come my way, unexpected or not.  So I said “hell yes,” despite the fact that I had to be ready in 45 minutes, needed to shower and look “hot”, and all of my clothes and makeup were halfway across the city in the hostel.

I jumped in and out of A’s shower, and then threw on a hat to cover my wet hair as I stood on the street to catch a taxi.  This time, I remembered to negotiate a price beforehand, although my urgency led me to accept a price that I could have worked down a little more had I tried harder.  In the taxi, I rolled down the window and let the breeze air dry my hair.  Traffic was heavy, and it was already past the time I had agreed to meet J beforehand.  At the hostel, I ran a brush through my now tangled but dry hair, applied some fast makeup, and threw on my only pair of heels and the most club-like dress I had packed. 

And then I stood on the street corner outside the hostel in my short dress, heels, and red lipstick, and tried to flag down a taxi while feeling every bit like a prostitute.  Several cars honked their horns at me, but not one was a taxi, and not one stopped.  I waited some more, J called again, and we agreed to meet at the club instead when I finally got a cab, which thankfully I did soon after.

The road to the club was winding and dark.  I am not familiar with Beirut and was unsure of the proper way to get to the club, but sitting in the back of a taxi that is speeding through unlit, empty streets behind what appeared to be oil refineries all while dressed like a prostitute (or at least feeling like one) is a little bit of a terrifying experience.  I nervously peered out my window and rapidly tapped my finger against the glass on my phone, until finally I caved and called J to confirm that I was, in fact, heading in the right direction and was not on some rape-bound ride.  Just as he eased my concerns that I was, the taxi pulled off the backroad and up at the club’s door.

The club itself was a sleek black box, rimmed at the top with a red neon strip.  The entrance into that box was a tunnel-like light box, the floor lit red from underneath like it was a giant DDR game whose squares were all illuminated.  Inside, we were greeted with a two-tiered structure that was open to the sky and centered around a stage similarly lit from the floor.  That stage could raise and lower, and at certain points throughout the night, it descended below the ground and was replaced with acrobats performing above the hollow space. 

I won’t get into the particulars of the night, but it was great.  I met some new friends, we had free bottle service at our table, and I danced (!) the night away.  We literally closed down the club—although apparently, as I just learned, we were politely escorted out after my friends ignored several warnings not to try to dance on the center stage. One of the guys in our party lived near me, so he drove me back to our neighborhood.  We had a 4:30am breakfast at a restaurant there before he dropped me off at A’s apartment.  I posted a few pictures of the night on my Facebook, so if you feel like looking check there.

This was a long post, so I’ll end here, but I promise to post more soon!

Tuesday, June 19, 2012

Writing by Candlelight (AKA my computer's LCD screen)


I sit down to write this latest entry by the light of my computer screen, as the power has just gone off for the third time today.[1]  The first was the regularly scheduled 3-hour outage (from 9am-12pm today); the second was only fifteen minutes ago, when we plugged an additional fan into an adapter, only to blow a fuse and have to reset our apartment’s power; and the third was just minutes after that, when the entire building (and, it seems, the street) went out.[2]  I am not sure why the power went out this time, but as we do not have a generator for our apartment, we’ll work in the dark until it goes back on.

This morning I had an alert in my inbox—sent by the International SOS, which I am a member of—which illuminated the power outage issue a little more.  Apparently, Lebanon’s normal power problems have been exacerbated by a two-month-long strike by the state electricity company’s temporary workers, who are demanding to become full-time workers.  Their strikes have led to Lebanon’s already meager electricity generation to be reduced by 50% in some areas.  Recently, the Energy Minister stated that scheduled power outages—which are three hours a day in Beirut and greater (as much as 15 hours a day) in other cities—will become worse during the summer months.  The announcement lead to popular protests, and yesterday activists blocked the highway to Beirut’s airport (as well as other highways) for a period of time. Blocking major roadways by burning tires is apparently a common protest method, and those wishing to continue on to the airport, for example, must disembark from their transportation before reaching their destination and walk the rest of the way.

Aside from regular power outages, I have begun a little routine in my days.  I wake up (late still, ugh), get ready, and head to the same cafĂ© for outrageously-priced coffee and food, where I will sit for the rest of the day and read my research material.  Around 8pm, I’ll drop off my bags at home and go pick up a falafel sandwich from a nearby restaurant.  The sandwich itself is probably the best falafel I have had (I get it with radishes, tomatoes, some green stuff that looks like mint, tahini, and a healthy dose of hot sauce), is approximately the size of a Chipotle burrito, and is less than $2.   I am attempting to stick to a food budget for the length of my time here, tempering my need for inevitably expensive coffee (just regular drip coffee runs around $5 a cup!) with inexpensive food from street vendors and the grocery store.  Cheap, quality food is one of the things I like best about the Middle East.  My recent trip to the grocery store, for instance, netted me a bottle of local olive oil, bread, labna (kind of like greek yogurt but better), and a giant block of halloumi cheese—all for under $10.  The halloumi cheese alone would have cost me at least $20 in the US.


In other news, after days of frustrated searching on Beirut Craiglist and various local housing website, I finally found a place to stay for the remainder of my time here.  I’ll be staying at a popular hostel in a dorm-style room, which is not necessarily ideal, but is by far the cheapest option available, especially considering I only need a place to stay for two weeks.  I’ll check in on Wednesday and update you all on my living situation after that.


[1] In total, it went out five times today.  ‘Tis life in Lebanon, apparently.
[2] The power stayed out for several hours afterwards, and was apparently out throughout the entire country, due to several power plants becoming disconnected from the power grid.  

Friday, June 15, 2012

Showering in the Dark

I have arrived safely and am settling in, and all of my previous concerns seem silly and unlikely.  My biggest concern at the moment is actually waking up on time and leaving enough hours in the day to get things accomplished.  My flight had left DC at 10pm local time on Tuesday, and I had two layovers in Paris and Rome before landing in Beirut at 2:30am on Thursday.  The excitement, the nervousness, and the good on-flight movie selections made for little sleep over those 20-some hours of travel.  Then, after getting to my friend Aimee's apartment--where I will be staying until I find permanent housing--I took a while getting settled in and didn't get to bed until after 4am.  I made plans to get things done the next day (get a key copied, buy a SIM card, go running, buy a towel and SHOWER), but I didn't end up waking up until 7pm.  Instead, Aimee and I went out for dinner (lamb kabobs and fried cheese, my favorite) and gelato, wandering around her neighborhood and catching up on what we've been doing for the last three years, when we last saw each other in Syria.

Today I woke up at 1pm (still poor, but I'm making progress), showered, and headed out to explore.  I made a copy of her key and spent a few hours sitting in a cafe eating lunch, drinking coffee, and reading.  Then I wandered down to the Corniche, a beautiful walkway along the Mediterranean, to take in the sea and the city.  There were plenty of walkers and runners along the path, and I definitely plan to run there tomorrow morning.

I'll save the poetic musings for another time, and instead offer you a few observations about living here.  Aimee has wifi in her apartment, but it is pretty slow; I can only have one window open and loaded at a time without everything crapping out.  According to her, Lebanon has the second-worst internet connection in the world (second only to Burkina Faso, I think, because they don't have internet at all).  One person will buy a DSL connection, and then sell access to it to others nearby.  Our own internet is quite literally connected through a wire that runs from our router and out to the window to the main source somewhere else.

Electricity too is intermittent.  The government shuts off differ sectors' power for three hour blocs each day, at alternating times.  Yesterday, ours was cut off from 6am-9am, and today from 5am-8am (it moves back an hour each day).  It probably wouldn't be that annoying, except for the fact that the room I am sleeping in is stuffy even with the fan on, so without some air blowing it is positively impossible to sleep.  The power was also cut off this afternoon, hence my post title, "Showering in the Dark"; today I showered by candlelight in an otherwise pitch-black bathroom.  I also forgot to turn the water heater on before hand (those little details of life here!), and so the water was pretty cold.  I could have waited for the electricity to turn on (indeed, it did turn on shortly after I got out), but by the point I got up I hadn't showered since Tuesday morning, and I was really desperately in need of it.

As for money, apparently it is perfectly acceptable to pay in American dollars.  1USD is equivalent to 1500 Lebanese pounds, so--for example--when my change today was supposed to be 2500 Lebanese pounds, the cashier handed me back a 1000 pound note and 1USD.  So far, food has been just as expensive as it is in DC, although a large reason for that is probably that I have been eating at places like Gloria Jean's so far!

Mostly, I am just in awe that I am back in the Middle East.  It feels like no time at all has passed and nothing has changed, but in truth three years have gone by and the world has changed in that time.  I am still unsure of my where my place is in that world, but for now I'm going to stop worrying about that, and just enjoy hearing the evening call to prayer once more.